My worry and fear.

Since I was little school it made me feel very stressed, study under pressure and render to the authorities, where everything is competition, where if you don't had a good qualification the teachers said that women would be servants and men would be cardboard collector. It was impossible not feel pressured to not have to be "that" when we grow up. 

Many times under pressure gave me severe headaches and stomach pains that were not calmed with anything, thus being a frequent visit to urgencies and observations when I was 8 or 9 years old.

I grew up don't want to go to school because teachers don't teach, and they wanted to copied everything they do and said. And I didn't want that for me.

This situations happened to in elementary school and high school I worried that it would not happen again.

Today at the university this situation has not changed much, I still feel under pressure everyday both from me and the authorities to be able to fulfill what they want me to do.

As I have more control over my body and emotions I don't go hospitalized but I often give attacks of tears, obviously in secret so as not to seem dramatic.

And that's why for now it's my biggest fear, I'm afraid that it will happen again and that my body reactions in a much more serious way. That's why I can't wait to not go to college to never feel like this again.